relaxed feet

Our feet are very important. we used them all day after all, just a reminder as much to myself as anyone reading to massage your feet nightly, or at the very least a couple times a week.
If you have bunions I found these 2 cool websites (thanks to my mum) which give some helpful ideas for natural remedies. I have slight salt buildups myself and I'm going to try these ideas after I order some bay leaves. The one recipe calls for massaging with olive oil which we do have so I'll probably try this sooner...

here are the websites. Of course all these take quite a bit of time and repetition so you may be in it for the long run.

POSITIVE MED
http://positivemed.com/2015/09/09/is-there-any-natural-ways-to-get-rid-of-bunions/

HEALTH & LOVE
http://organicdailypost.com/natural-recipes-for-getting-rid-of-bunions/

1 week off...hopefully

Hopefully getting a week off from work. Maybe going out to the "mountains" to see boyfriend tomorrow or tuesday. As much as I reaallly wanna see him, I'm already expecting to feel stressed or anxious... I've been feeling this way in great excess... I have a lot of studying I need to do and I haven't been able to get to much of it. As much as I'd like to blame someone else, it's mostly my fault and just being to busy with work and other small projects, including upcoming garden season, + the boyfriend who are monopolizing my time, and I love him and my projects but doesn't change the fact that I feel stressed at myself and a 5 hour drive tomorrow doesn't sound like a good topper to my nerves haha
But I've been missing him so, and so busy with work, a few days with him do sound great, of course I need to go pack the necessities and make sure to get his birthday gifts etc, etc

I did get a lot of my garden stuff done yesterday and I did some computer and billing things I needed to get done..whew

I try not to dwell on the future to hard, because It doesn't solve everything to do that but hard not to think about it some times, I wonder if we can even get through the summer and I don't mean break up, I just mean can I take all summer like this, with this whole 4 weeks apart thing, and I'm going to get busier as the summer comes in so it may mean less and less time for him...
I've been looking at places to live closer to him, and maybe this fall or next year I might move west...
My eldest brother announced his wedding last week too, it's not till the fall but it's another big upcoming event...

Long hair and sunshine...this is a wonderful feeling...

We also had such a great family dinner after work on Thursday, and then coffee and fruit parfaits. Parfaits are my favorite thing ever, really, as far as sweet desserts go. I'm not a fan of super sweet foods and random fact: I don't like chocolate (for the most part)

My adopted kitty, we decided she's a Turkish Angora decent, how exciting!

Homemade Vegan Goldfish Crackers

Just wanted to share my own take on this wonderful recipe. So I didn't use Vegan butter, but I used coconut oil, I wouldn't mind making the vegan version but I'm not even sure our local stores have vegan butter haha...

Here is the recipe, and here's Chloe's link to her awesome pro-vegan and vegetarian website:

http://chefchloe.com/recipes/on-the-side/vegan-goldfish-crackers.html

Ingredients

1. 1 cup whole wheat flour, plus extra for dusting work surface.
2. 2 tablespoons nutritional yeast.
3. 1/4 teaspoon onion powder.
4. 1/8 teaspoon turmeric.
5. 1 teaspoon sea salt.
6. 1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper.
7. 5 tablespoons vegan butter.
8. 4 tablespoons cold water.

Preheat oven to 375 F and bake about 12 to 15 minutes

So I added some extra seasonings to mine but that was just a personal preference, I added a little cayenne. haha I'm a spicy freak! But everyone I had try them loved them and one of my friends came over and her and her boyfriend loved them. Went well with Chili soup. Also I didn't have time to order or create a goldfisher cutter, so I used a dolphin and butterfly. I found with my dough that if it dried out as I was rolling it or dusting with flour, I just added some of the cold water and sort of re-kneaded it in to soften it up some then rolled it out again.

I loved Chloe's website and her take on these crackers, because I used to eat so many goldfish crackers a couple years ago for snacks and I knew they weren't that great for you, but I loved them, of course since then I've been wanting to do something healthier and I just really love these!!

I want to try my own pretzels soon to, the crunchy ones, not the soft ones....

Oatmeal and dealing with deep winter

My yummy dinner from last night. You wouldn't believe how delicious oatmeal and ice cream or talanta or frozen yogurt is together, unless of course you've had it. My boyfriend turned me on to this. And it's so good, there's loads of combinations, we've done a lot of them. From frozen and fresh fruit to mixed nuts and almond milk oh and honey
Mine last night was vanilla bean yogurt and oatmeal with stevia to sweeten and vanilla flavoring. SO DELICIOUS!! 😛

 

In other news, I've accomplished a lot of my weekly goals, which makes me really proud! Like already have in 2 hours of studying, found several new inspirational study blogs to follow, gotten yoga in every day except one. Hopefully I can stay the course and accomplish even more goals. It's such a good feeling. I'm the type of person who enjoys structure and staying busy, I tend to get depressed when I'm not busy so it can make even things like studying really difficult, I'd prefer to be outside and with these days you can't be outside very long when it's -5 below zero Fahrenheit, staying focused on goals in the winter helps a lot.

The things I do go out for, are like chores, to pet my horse, run around a little, if you want snow balls are always fun, or building a snow man. Then there's coffee, hot chocolate or tea when you come back in to warm up...love this feeling. 

How does winter affect your mood and goals?

Have you ever tried oatmeal and frozen yogurt, or a vegan substitute?

Weekly Goals

Hello
Considering it's Wednesday, maybe some of the week is over but I have already accomplished some of my goals and I wanna put them on here so I can look back at all my progress.

#Be Kind, give compliments

#Paint some more on my big painting

#Draw the picture I'm working on for sis

#Do yoga every morning this week (I missed yesterday, but got Monday. After Holidays, you'll know how that can be.

#Take a long walk, if it's warm enough too

#Get at least 2 pages of book editing done, or write 2 pages.

#Bake Vegan goldfish crackers ( recipe I found online nearly 2 years ago, I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN IT MADE!!

#Organize recipe and fitness binder

#Follow some more studyblr blogs for inspiration!!! (I'm pretty much obsessed with them anyway and I enjoy making my own studyblr posts hehe)

#The Harder part. GET AT LEAST 5 HOURS STUDYING IN!!!!

(FOR MY OWN RECORD THESE WEEKLY GOALS RUN SUNDAY-TO SUNDAY. Because I can always break things down and do easier stuff on the weekend)

Hello wide world or great silence that I'm speaking to.
I've been wanting to blog more, and every year so far I don't get to it. I realized just now, looking at my shabby, little, neglected blog that I also only seem to get something done about this situation on December 31st, coming into the new year and I have a burst of energy and write a yearly review and intend to go further from there...
Now in the past, I didn't have this lightweight laptop that I know have. Makes things incredibly easier then usual. and my years have been super busy, since like 2013, when I tried writing and blogging some. Not to get confused, I do write constantly, but it's that I'm writing on my book not on a blog. This year I really do wanna find time for both and all but we shall see. I hope to do better. I am looking at another busy year, I have a steady boyfriend. We've known each other since I was about 5. Right now, we're doing a five hour long distance thing though, we're sometimes I'm there and sometimes he's here for a bit, it can be exhausting and he has no internet service.
I will refer to him as my mountain man, since that's what I call him on a regular basis...other things to balance coming into the new year, 2017, is health, fitness, yoga, family, hopefully some studying/college, and lots of horse and garden work, also camping, and more hunting in the fall of 2017, it sounds like an odd mix of everything and maybe it is but I happen to like the chaos that's my life,
So here's a little review were i just try to be positive about my life. Maybe a photo set to follow...
Laying by the warm wood stove, it's Saturday, my boyfriend is here, and so is my family, all kinda doing their own things at the moment. I trimmed Mountain Man's hair a few minutes ago and he took a shower,.. occasionally there's also the boom of fire words, marking the exit of the year.
Earlier today, I snuggled with mountain man, and felt blessed to be able to do so, we had some fun and got coffee, everyone was up and around kind of earlier. I guess Zach, my brother and his girlfriend and her mum are coming over mid morning and staying for lunch. My dad was trying to get a few things done on my vehicle and it ended up being annoying and tedious work, so mountain man and I went to town at like 9:30 to get them, we also picked up orange danish and cinnamon rolls for tomorrow. the spoiled way we occasionally have sunday morning breakfast.
The last day of this year, was mostly just cozy, although I did have some bad anxiety going on about what to actually do for the eve, drink champagne with fam and boyfriend of course, but I didn't want mountain man to feel like I'm a super boring person, there's so little to do as far as a night on the town, in our small little neighborhood, so I finally talked with him some and I felt so much better because he didn't feel that way at all, he's so relaxed and I'm so blessed to have him. so we did stay in, we ended up going through elk shed storied online, huge antlers people have found. and we had some chips and salsa, everyone else had played a game called catch phrase for hours and hours, and finally they quit, my brother and sister in law came back out around 10:30 and we chatted till midnight, we started drinking some champagne around 11;30 so we could properly enjoy it and we talked about the good times of the last year, mum dosed off, "resting her eyes" and dad was asleep haha then we had a cheer, and "clinked" glasses and BF and I kisssed, I don't felt great to have an actual cozy new year, last year, Abby and I spent New Years together in CO. drinking angry orchid and the year before that I spent with my ex in Florida, ugh not a good memory... so I just wanted to remember how great and calm this new year's eve is, and how blessed we are.

Ok, anyway that's getting of course of some of my review...
So onto things I'm proud of this year (2016):
Saved enough I was able to buy my vehicle.
Learned new yoga routines,
Got out of a unhealthy relationship.
Walked and ran a lot, like always (only this year the running tapered off after I moved back home)
Finally got my passport renewed.
Made 2 actual friends (Bre and Shay) although I moved and don't talk as much anymore, big step for me as I'm not a social person AT ALL.
Went out socially more in general.
Conquered some food fears, especially by traveling and trying some new people's baked food, which I'm afraid of (still not saying I want to do that to often haha)
Got moved and things closed down in Colorado ok.
Almost finished writing a book and did a ton of planning for my other series.
The biggest garden project we've ever taken on was a success, stayed very busy working at that through the summer and made profit, which I was proud of.
Began dating my boyfriend, in September 2016, such a wonderful shock!
More bond fires, which I stuck around for.
Built shelves for my mum in her basement.
Got back on my Arabian horse by myself.
Bought my camping gear.
Overcame many a day of depression and sadness,
Went elk hunting/shed hunting with my boyfriend and dad (beautiful scenery!)
Got to visit a new state, one I hadn't been to.
Wonderful thanksgiving and had a second thanksgiving which I've never done before, with my Mountain Man's family.

There's been stress but just as many happy days I think to balance them out. I worked out a lot this year and tried to stay focused. Of course there was things I didn't accomplish and some of that was because of the boyfriend distraction, which I hadn't anticipated at all...I'm getting things balanced there, finally, so I can include him in my other goals.
Next post will be about some goals of the new year. I'm not so into the strict resolutions thing but you do have to believe and inspire yourself....
Me precisely one year apart. I'm not sure there is a lot of difference, but I don't like the way I looked as much last year...

Feels like the first time~

So, I'm back to wanting to keep up more with my blogging, even though I'm bananas busy, it's probably going to be spotty at times, but I guess the fun will be in the trying...

So a quick overview. I'm in Florida now, west coast, River is just me pen name....I got my license's switched, registered to vote, got a job, and I'm working on my exams for school, or however it works, I'm narrowing in on what I want to do (and writing on my novel/book in the meantime), the bottom line is I'm desperately wanting to do the TESL still, I was going to do the oxford seminars in January, but since I've never gotten even an associates I'm not sure it makes much sense to worry about the certificate when I need to have some college in, in order for most countries to consider you as a teacher.
So now I'm thinking; get an associates degree and then maybe do the EPIK course, they do one through like a different company, and you can get started with an associates instead of a bachelor's. You can even continue your education in a different country!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW FREAKING EPIC!!!!!! Since that's always what I've wanted to do.....so anyway things may be uncertain, but how much I want to live, breathe, and explore other countries, starting with my Korea is not uncertain, so I'll make it happen even if takes me another two years, that time will pass anyway......

Anyway on past that, I have a passion still for dance,acting, martial arts and languages so I'm always continuing on that. And book publishing!! I'm to Page 140 in my book woot woot....

So I'm living with my sister, continually stuck in time-looped thoughts about my international boy <3 and trying to just survive. Sometimes it's really hard because I may look strong on the outside and sure, but some days I feel really suicidal to be honest~

So here we go again, I'll try to make a post tomorrow.

First Entry~

So first post, eva~

and it's December 31, I can hardly believe it, it's so strange to be saying goodbye to this year and hello to a new one, I can't wait actually, it's just high time this year be gone...
So....a little about me.

 

There are sooo many blogs about people's lives, I feel like a cheap copycat for even making this, so no one has to "follow" me or anything, this is kind of more for myself ig, I'm not in a very good place right now, mentally, one minute, I'm fine the next I want to kill everyone.
So, I decided to post some of my issues, but also my victories and goals, just write about them to let it out and make it better, I hope, I've always been very interested in health, exercise etc, and this is manly a blog for those goals, but it includes other things~

Definitely they'll be some thinspiration and stuff, but in more of a healthy way, I hope. The thing is, the way I live and what I eat, it works for me, but I don't want it to make other people upset/restrict etc, it's just the way I am, I don't really look at it like restricting anyway, because I'm like this I guess..

I'm a very active person, I have horses, love the outdoors and I'm out a lot exercising, walking, running, out with horses etc...I dance a lot and go to tae kwon do, fairly often.
I'll be posting a list of a couple things I want to get done in the new year, at some point. A  resolution list I guess.
and I want to do a looking back on the year list, inspired from the amazing Izzy at http://living-with-anorexia.blogspot.com/ ......