I've been so reminiscent of Florida today too, missing the sunshine and the sand, the beach, even the wind there seems different to me, for one thing I guess you can smell salt on the air; I do intend to go back....

on the way to Saint Augustine. 

Whilst in Florida, my boyfriend sent me this picture of the ocean, he said it matched my eyes best. I miss the idea of him.

Just one of many trips across the Sunshine Skyway Bridge.

Saint Augustine, I wanted to get a lot closer to the sailing ship then I did. I want to go here again!

Ahhh that stormy day, looking out on the untamed Atlantic Ocean for the first time.

Stop over in Orlando, view from a hotel me and my ex stayed in..

1 week off...hopefully

Hopefully getting a week off from work. Maybe going out to the "mountains" to see boyfriend tomorrow or tuesday. As much as I reaallly wanna see him, I'm already expecting to feel stressed or anxious... I've been feeling this way in great excess... I have a lot of studying I need to do and I haven't been able to get to much of it. As much as I'd like to blame someone else, it's mostly my fault and just being to busy with work and other small projects, including upcoming garden season, + the boyfriend who are monopolizing my time, and I love him and my projects but doesn't change the fact that I feel stressed at myself and a 5 hour drive tomorrow doesn't sound like a good topper to my nerves haha
But I've been missing him so, and so busy with work, a few days with him do sound great, of course I need to go pack the necessities and make sure to get his birthday gifts etc, etc

I did get a lot of my garden stuff done yesterday and I did some computer and billing things I needed to get done..whew

I try not to dwell on the future to hard, because It doesn't solve everything to do that but hard not to think about it some times, I wonder if we can even get through the summer and I don't mean break up, I just mean can I take all summer like this, with this whole 4 weeks apart thing, and I'm going to get busier as the summer comes in so it may mean less and less time for him...
I've been looking at places to live closer to him, and maybe this fall or next year I might move west...
My eldest brother announced his wedding last week too, it's not till the fall but it's another big upcoming event...

Long hair and sunshine...this is a wonderful feeling...

We also had such a great family dinner after work on Thursday, and then coffee and fruit parfaits. Parfaits are my favorite thing ever, really, as far as sweet desserts go. I'm not a fan of super sweet foods and random fact: I don't like chocolate (for the most part)

My adopted kitty, we decided she's a Turkish Angora decent, how exciting!

blahhhhhh

Just some photoblogs from the past weeks, love my curtains hung up, always wish the cedar tree out front was bigger and grander... sunsets are glorious, my hair curls came out good one day, I've been depressed lately and trying to get myself out of the funk... hasn't worked yet, even though I'm happy in other ways, boyfriend and I are on our 5 month anniversary and I love him. I sometimes just arrive at the conclusion that I'm a very, very weird person... but I try to remain positive, sometimes I make blogs posts about how I'm feeling and that makes me feel a lot better, so does chopping wood, or working out, ig I like the physical output as an outlet, I don't want to bring others down by being negative, so I hope this doesn't bring anyone down reading it, there's a lot to live for and be happy about

  

Weekend Again

I keep meaning to post before the weekend but it's been difficult to get to it with everything else there is to do, crazy how so many every day things get in the way, like showering, doing laundry, cleaning up, it could be just be cause I'm a neat freak...
I've been fretting over the weekend though, I need to go see my boyfriend but I'm also tired, really want to see him at the same time. ughh if I go, I'll probably miss monday work which isn't all bad, but not all good either just cause the work is important to me...
On top of that, everything around our place needs work, firewood cut, the sewer is having problems yet again...I need to put my new tires on my vehicle. trim my horses hooves....
La Di Da
So many thoughts zooming around my mind, I'm worried sometimes that I think to much, I've been told that sometimes....

IT'S THE WEEKEND~~

So happy to see the weekend come after my 40 hour work week, very thankful for the work, but it's a little tiring and its very difficult to balance boyfriend, study, writing, family time and that much work, but anyway very happy o have 2 days to myself and my fam. Boyfriend's birthday is next week. I don't think I'l be able to be there on the exact day (cries) but hopefully not long after, so I have to get him his gift and prepare his birthday card, I'm gong to try to create him one, loosely based on one I found on Pinterest.
So today I'm writing, did a nice yoga set earlier, delicious lunch, terrible headache and I would like to go for a walk, but who knows, it's very windy, and a little chilly here today...

for now here's some positive vibes pictures I found round the net....