1 week off...hopefully

Hopefully getting a week off from work. Maybe going out to the "mountains" to see boyfriend tomorrow or tuesday. As much as I reaallly wanna see him, I'm already expecting to feel stressed or anxious... I've been feeling this way in great excess... I have a lot of studying I need to do and I haven't been able to get to much of it. As much as I'd like to blame someone else, it's mostly my fault and just being to busy with work and other small projects, including upcoming garden season, + the boyfriend who are monopolizing my time, and I love him and my projects but doesn't change the fact that I feel stressed at myself and a 5 hour drive tomorrow doesn't sound like a good topper to my nerves haha
But I've been missing him so, and so busy with work, a few days with him do sound great, of course I need to go pack the necessities and make sure to get his birthday gifts etc, etc

I did get a lot of my garden stuff done yesterday and I did some computer and billing things I needed to get done..whew

I try not to dwell on the future to hard, because It doesn't solve everything to do that but hard not to think about it some times, I wonder if we can even get through the summer and I don't mean break up, I just mean can I take all summer like this, with this whole 4 weeks apart thing, and I'm going to get busier as the summer comes in so it may mean less and less time for him...
I've been looking at places to live closer to him, and maybe this fall or next year I might move west...
My eldest brother announced his wedding last week too, it's not till the fall but it's another big upcoming event...

Long hair and sunshine...this is a wonderful feeling...

We also had such a great family dinner after work on Thursday, and then coffee and fruit parfaits. Parfaits are my favorite thing ever, really, as far as sweet desserts go. I'm not a fan of super sweet foods and random fact: I don't like chocolate (for the most part)

My adopted kitty, we decided she's a Turkish Angora decent, how exciting!

IT'S THE WEEKEND~~

So happy to see the weekend come after my 40 hour work week, very thankful for the work, but it's a little tiring and its very difficult to balance boyfriend, study, writing, family time and that much work, but anyway very happy o have 2 days to myself and my fam. Boyfriend's birthday is next week. I don't think I'l be able to be there on the exact day (cries) but hopefully not long after, so I have to get him his gift and prepare his birthday card, I'm gong to try to create him one, loosely based on one I found on Pinterest.
So today I'm writing, did a nice yoga set earlier, delicious lunch, terrible headache and I would like to go for a walk, but who knows, it's very windy, and a little chilly here today...

for now here's some positive vibes pictures I found round the net....

Sunday In Photos

Just a photo update from my Sunday, It's been a good day all in all... we had breakfast, I made some delicious french toast and an egg, which I never normally have. I adore my elk cup so much from my boyfriend. Gosh I haven't seen him for a full week now. But I should get to see him on tuesday maybe I don't know, hope so. I feel stressed today again blaaaah sometimes I hate Sunday. and I shouldn't word it like that, I really dislike it, unless I'm working out or doing something physical.

I was really proud today though. I was really close to ordering a new weekly planner off Amazon, cause I needed one and they were like $20 and then I was looking at these cool pens, even though I have 100 pens and 300 note books hahaha not really but it feels that way sometimes, anyway I was really, really proud because I talked myself out of the new weekly planner, and the pens. I decided to use one of my awesome notepads I already have and it was a great feeling, it made me feel better overall.

We had pizza today, normally we have pizza Friday religiously. But this week things got mixed up and we had it today instead.

Mildly bummed I don't get to see mountain man tomorrow but I'll see him soon enough, and right now it's good to have a little break to get my goals in order and my studying done.

Below are the a few photos from the day...

My work on my notepad or my weekly spread, plus my beautiful elk cut, the sun shine was gorgeous today, warm and toasty!

 My pretty little breakfast....

 Epic, beautiful braid my sister did for me XOXO

 My friend did one of these epic photo windows for my birthday, or rather as a late gift. It's so awesome, now for getting it hung up, that may take a while as I've been busy but I love it!

More sunshine on my desk and work area, and my white kitty laying behind me while I worked on my notebook spread..

Follow up to my weekly goals...

So I love lists, staying organized and focused ( as much as you can without causing yourself to much frustration). I wrote up a post for weekly goals and I stuck to it really well, here's my list of what else I got done, or didn't get to. technically I have tomorrow to finish a few things out if I want to.

#long walk (Maybe if Sunday is nice, but lately it's been -12 F just a little to cold for walking outside, I wanted to get my butt to the gym this week, but study took up a lot of time. Guess this can be a next week goal, normally I walk daily.)

#Bake Vegan Goldfish Crackers (They came out surprisingly well, I added some extra spices to mine, such as cayenne, garlic powder, extra salt, I'll  do a separate post for how they came out)

#Organize recipe and fitness binder

#Follow more study blogs for inspiration

#Be Kind, Give compliments (normally I'm good at this, only gave myself a reminder because when I get anxious or stressed my kind factor kinda takes a back set)

#Get at least 2 pages of book editing done, or 2 pages written

#Yoga every morning this week

#Paint some more on my big painting (I've only done a little on this, enough to mark it out, hope to do more next week.

#5 hours of studying in (Hard to believe I got this done. Really proud.)

#Draw the picture I'm working on for sis

Vegan crackers 

It's one of those cozy 6am post, I'm writing on journal entries. Sipping coffee and can hear the downstairs fire crackle every now and again. What a great day to be alive!!
That's how I'm feeling right now, a little tired, a little stressed, but isn't it a wonderful feeling to know you're warm and safe and that people love you?
I was just struck with that, as
I often am. Even when we're having a bad day if we could only try stepping back, focusing on what all we have to be thankful for, the positives. We'd feel so much better.
This is as much a post to remind myself as anyone reading it. Sometimes I'm depressed and angry for odd reasons, sometimes not sure of the reason.
Everyone feels this once in a while, or maybe you're one of those awesome people who don't feel this way as much, my point is you're not alone...